Permission

Give me your permission to cry.
My heart hurts, almost explode, I just can't take it anymore.

I rarely cry and you know it.
But tonight, this is just too much.
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
I have nobody to comfort me and I'm in pain.

Enough shaking, enough being cold, enough suffocated, enough with everything.

I will try not to complain.
But please,
give me your permission to cry.

I won't complain.
I will accept.
Whatever it is.
I accept.
But now, I just need to let go.
And pitty myself.
Love myself.
Silly me.
It hurts.
Everything hurts.
My body hurts, my heart hurts.
This is just... too much to handle at one time.